***This is written as the thoughts are coming…I just got off the phone with V and shared some really deep things regarding my life with her…it now has me thinking…I figure I can’t be the only one in this place right now***
Recently, events in my life have forced me to confront my outlook on love. L-O-V-E. I’ve been taking a critical eye, examining it and truly questioning its value…is it worth it? I suck for that. The Bible is all about love, God is love and life is…love.
But why does it have to hurt though? And be so challenging? Is that not the biggest oxymoron of all oxymorons? For something like that to be so POWERFUL, so MONUMENTAL, so LIFE-CHANGING, why can it not be simpler? Easier? More effortless? (and no, I’m not speaking on exclusive “romantic relationship” love…all of it. All of it is rarely ever EASY…at least to me it seems that way)
“I love you” is not a daily part of my vocabulary. I use it sparingly…too sparingly at times. Sometimes when it’s time to hang up with somone, I get ready to say it then close my mouth…despite the fact that I love them to death, something in me just won’t let me go there. I hate that. And it may be a family member or something…Ty comes to mind lol.
Once you say it, it can’t be taken back. If you use it, you better mean it…despite my outlook on the topic, to say “I love you” still means a LOT to me and goes a LONG way with me.
So yeah, recently I’ve been thinking a lot about this…the good, a lot of the bad and the flat out ugly. And then today I was reading Shelby’s blog and she wrote a post on love’s importance. And man, did it hit home.
Ultimately it’s saying that love and our relationships are what life is about. All Ten Comandments deal directly with love/respect in relationships and things such as money, future promotions, random interests, building empires and the overall “grind” have NEVER been a proper substitute. To place those things over our relationships with family, friends and other significant people in our lives is an EPIC fail. I needed this. I’ve found myself giving 90% of myself to my “work” and internally, my Spirit has not been okay with this. My family and friends are my world and my priorities don’t reflect this.
I need to change.
Below is Shelby’s article. Read it. This may be the reminder you need to get a new perspective on the life you lead. I know it has served as a reminder to me.
My life’s passion is definitely “love” – I know it’s weird, but I fundamentally believe there is nothing more important than love. With that said, yesterday after having a conversation about “why my passion is love and not pastry arts school” with a few classmates (yikes), Mike and I decided to crack open “The Purpose Driven Life” and by “coincidence” we read this. It literally gave me goose bumps, so I had to share it. So out of love – I paraphrased a section from the book (chapter 16) Enjoy!