This past summer I found myself not fitting in my clothes the way I used too, namely my bottoms. Everything was fitting tighter and I noticed a few additional stretch marks yet I wasn’t gaining any weight. I couldn’t understand why suddenly I was splitting my size 2 jeans and shorts, especially since I’d been paying a lot of attention to how and what I was eating and had consequently become a healthier, more conscious person. I was incredibly confused and it didn’t help that the guy I was seeing didn’t always make me feel the most secure about it.
When it was time to switch my summer clothes out for my winter ones, I finally had to face the problem when NONE of my blue jeans fit anymore. I couldn’t get them over my thighs and knew not to force it because as experience had taught me several times this summer, I would surely split them. After shedding a tear or two over it and reviewing a few possible work-out routines
always abandoning them before I began because I don’t like to sweat, I decided to try out a larger size just to see what would happen.
While size 4’s were a slight struggle to get on as I had to shimmy a bit to get them up over my thighs, size 6’s glided on effortlessly! There was no stomach fat or other things jiggling over the edge of my waistband and the slim figure I have grown accustomed to over the past several years suddenly revealed itself again.
Is this that troublesome “woman weight” I’d been hearing about since high school? Are these wider hips, thicker thighs and bigger bum my womanly curves that have finally come to introduce me to womanhood?
Suddenly I had my “aha” moment!
While I had been dreading buying bigger sizes, I now find myself welcoming it. I’m incredibly relieved to finally have an answer. Life had been such a mystery for a second, not understanding or knowing why I suddenly, almost overnight, couldn’t fit into my clothes.
While many may say “a 2 or a 6 is still small and nothing to worry about,” and I would agree, it is still an adjustment, a dramatic one in fact for someone such as myself, but I’m welcoming the change. I’ve never switched sizes that dramatically before (with the exception of shoe sizes in 5th/6th grade) and it’s nice being able to rock things like leggings more confidently these days haha. Either way, I’m now in desperate need of jeans and dress pants (as I have to replace ALL of the ones I used to own) and am taking any/all tips as it relates to this search.
Feels good to be back in my happy space!